I find that I am always working on some aspect of myself. I am aware that it is the key to growth: consistently assessing and adjusting my thoughts, beliefs, worldview and actions. It is something that I teach to people that work with me. But I sometimes fall into the belief that you can work on it and resolve an issue, and everything is fine. For good.
Well, as you probably know, that’s absolutely not true. For me, resolving an issue makes space for another one to present itself so that it can be addressed. Or an old one that needs a version 2.0 (or 12.0).
In building a business, I often seek to refine what has been done, or create something new. And as I am doing this, I often get frustrated and/or stuck, and there it is…the issue that I need to resolve. Sitting there like a cute little gremlin that I need to train. Or retrain.
This week, I have been working on adjustments regarding my mindset. I thought that I had worked out my problems with having a scarcity mindset and shifted beautifully into a mindset of abundance. And I had. But there were some lingering gremlins that showed up after midnight, and they weren’t so cute.
So I sat with them. I read some things. I worked really hard to get still and quiet, and just listen. Just listen.
I realized that my issues with having aspects of a scarcity mindset, didn’t come from believing that there wasn’t enough for everyone, but that there wasn’t enough for me. I somehow thought that when I receive abundance for myself, that I was taking it from someone else.
Now I know, you may think that I’m really absurd in my thinking. And that’s the beauty of adjustments in mindset. You get to change those absurd thoughts (once you recognize them for what they are) into thoughts and beliefs that are more logical, that fit better with who you are now.
I don’t know exactly where that thought came from. I am sure it is leftover from my childhood, where the focus seemed to be on what we didn’t have or what I shouldn’t do. But I’m not a child anymore, and I’m ready to put away those childish things.
This gremlin is done for. And I know, just as I sweep away the dust from this one, another may appear, initially looking cute and cuddly , but upon further review, is a small monster that I need to tackle in order to grow. The good news is that I’ve done this work before. I can resolve the issue, create version 2.0 (or more) and I will continue to build my mind, my heart and my soul into the person that I am meant to be.